Identified With Your Job?
I never realized this until now, but I am so identified with what I do. It's interesting because when I was at my job prior to taking this leave of absence, I always dreamed about leaving law to pursue my passion in fashion.
Now that I am not working, I did not realize how much the core of me was identified with the job, and to a much higher degree, the profession I've been trying to get out of for quite some time.
It's ironic, because I always hated it when people asked me what I do. I automatically judge that question, thinking in my head "I am not what I do, so why are you asking me that!" Little did I realize that I judge myself for what I do!
My identity is so wrapped up in being an attorney that I feel like part of me is lost. I have a plethora of skill sets to do anything that I desire, yet, for some reason, doubt creeps at times telling me that I am incapable of doing anything else.
And maybe that is why I feel so beholden to my job, and have a difficult time letting it go. This is magnified by the fact that I have been there for over 5 years and have some wonderful colleagues who are my friends.
With that said, however, I think about how there is a whole different world aside from my job with limitless opportunities. If I do feel beholden to my job based on the fact that I identify with my job, then I want to find that opportunity that best suits me - one that I find passion for, and one that makes me a better person.
I have faith that there is such an opportunity out there for me.
Do you feel beholden to your job or identify with what you do?