I was asked by my team leader one late night during overtime hours, “Happy paka khen? (Are you happy with your job Khen?)”  I was caught off guard. I was too swamped that day and nearly gave up.  Should I tell the truth?


Toastmaster of the night, fellow toastmasters, guests and friends, good evening 


Before I will give you the answer to the question my Team Leader asked me, let me define the meaning of the most controversial word TRUTH.


What is Truth?             

Truth can have a variety of meanings, such as the state of being in accord with a particular fact or reality, or being in accord with the body of real things, real events and actualities.


And the actual state of the matter right now is that my life revolves on my work and it’s drowning me deep. Work is not life and life is not work and that hit me.


 I am tired of working beyond office hours, exhausted in going home at the crack of dawn, coupled by stressful issues that involves various business partners around the globe to work with, and not to mention, torrents of emails that come streaming your inbox causing it to crash. These things of course, cannot be compensated by money.


Or it could be that I am already jealous of my friends going out.  The feeling of guilt creeps in as they call me MIA short name for missing in action.


Or miss my family at home, watching TV and discussing things with them.


And the most controversial, decisive and tempting truth I couldn’t hide is that an opportunity came for me to apply to one of the top four audit firms, in a department I always dream on, is right there in my hands, ready for the take. 


That was the truth rumbling inside my head behind the 5 second pause I gave my Team Leader before I actually answered her question.


But you know what?  I only said. “Happy paman (Yeah I’m happy)”.  Do you believe what I said?  I know you think I was just lying.


It is because I gave you first the truth in my mind.  It leads you to that conclusion, but what about if I tell you the truth inside my heart?


Yes, I wasn’t able to enjoy the kind of life my auditor friends are experiencing right now, the travels at work which I love the most about working in audit firms, the free taxation seminars, or the rests at home, hibernating and doing things I love to do like reading and watching movies.  I really missed that life.


But, there is another truth, the fact that I am enjoying the busy life at work.


When things got hectic I always recall this quote I made up “It is at tough times that you are given opportunities to be great”.


Months ago before we’ve transitioned to a new ERP system SAP an acronym for Systems Applications and Products in Data Processing.  I was clamoring for some challenges at work; work was easy and routinary that time.  I got bored. 


And now, though I still got the same workload but with the new system, it became problematic, hard but very challenging.   I can proudly say that I have exhausted the knowledge I have and as far as the current situation, I am getting good results.   I have understood my work, have pleased my business partners and most importantly I can say that I have contributed something that I can be proud of.


SAP is hard and maybe it will be harder the coming days ahead, however, what fills my heart with gladness is not how difficult the job is or how uncertain and dragging things are, but it’s how my beloved CSSC Finance North America Family goes through it.


For that, I truly believe that it is when adversaries come, that you’ll find the camaraderie of everyone. 


Hence I asked you now, which statements do you believe is the exact truth about what I felt?  For hearing my second premise, I bet you would answer the truth inside my heart.


Truth can be twisted through the way you present things and that makes truth so controversial.  Simple statements and actions could lead to different conclusions.  Therefore, there is a metaphysical problem of truth at all!


So, how can you actually know the real truth amidst all the complexities of it?


The lines of a young and inexperienced lawyer in the movie A Time to kill, could somehow answer this question. His stirring words that struck my heart, as this movie inspired me to write and speak about the Truth.


 He said and I quote “Now, it is incumbent upon us lawyers not to just talk about the truth, but to actually seek it, to find it, to live it.

What is it in us that seek the truth? Is it our minds or is it our hearts?

If you say that we are all equal in the eyes of the law. That's not the truth, because the eyes of the law are human eyes -- yours and mine -- and until we can see each other as equals, justice is never going to be evenhanded. It will remain nothing more than a reflection of our own prejudices, so until that day we have a duty under God to seek the truth, not with our eyes and not with our minds where fear and hate turn commonality into prejudice, but with our hearts -- where we don't know better”.